blue~

my results from the quiz i took at facebook~ you can try it~ ^>^
what colour suits your personality? there~

You are blue! You are a deep, sensitive dreamer. You are usually laid back and calm, though, like an ocean, you can kick up a good storm, too! You are probably a daydreamer, who has his/her head in the clouds. You love spending time with your friends, and probably just go with whatever they want to do (you're a go with the flow type of person, just like water!). You are emotionally inclined - unlike reds, who feel passionately and intensely, you feel things deeply and strongly. You are extremely loyal, and your friends can always count on you to be there for them. Blues are almost always very intelligent, and they strive for perfection in many areas. You may tend to beat yourself up for your imperfections. Other people admire you and strive to be like you, but you probably have a hard time understanding why. You can be light and fun at times, and other times deep and introverted. It just depends on your mood. Sometimes you throw people off with your random changes in disposition, but your friends love you anyways. You can be a very wise, intellectual person, but you have to pull yourself up out of your own thoughts first! You, in a nutshell: Deep, emotional, wise, loyal, slightly moody, feeling, sensitive, supportive, intelligent. BLUE!

what hurts the most~ :'(

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

transparent? sigh...

oh well,now i'm transparent in your eyes.. sigh...
borrowing,lending,owing was never a crime,it's a crime when it comes
to repaying which you'd return after a year? a century? or just forget about it?
i'm not mugging about this,please don't misunderstand people..what i really wanna say is
when you need me,you'll remember me,when you don't,i'm just an ant to you,pretending that i'm not there with you
when i'm only in front of your eyes..
i'm waiting for your call every weekend,i thought you might want to shoot some hoops,hang out together..
but well,you never once called for about a month now..i thought i can spent some time with you,but well..
looks like i'm just a fool on a stage playing my own dumb role like i'm the only person living in this world.. sigh..
sigh..it's alright..i don't blame you.. you don't even care about me anyway.. sigh...
disappointing moment.. rejection to the world~ :'(

i didn't use any name instead of you because i don't wanna quarrel with you..
so please understand and don't come running to me like a mad dog after reading this...
sigh...sigh...it's disappointing..

looking,thinking,wishing~

looking,thinking,wishing
to go back in time to correct what i've done wrong...
seeking for the love,happiness we used to spent together..
seeking for my beloved............i miss so much,wishing to go back and correct
what i've done that hurt you..
i miss my past.. time flies.... sigh...
.................i miss you so much my dear~ and i'm sorry for everything..
will get back to as soon as i can.. forgive me yeah..
so sorry~ sigh...

time change everything~

Time erased the love we held
Lonely came to grace
Forever never was enough
To hold us in this place

Empty home;frozen windows
Abandoned,lonesome dreams
Shattered by the selfishness
That filled our fighting screams~

Passion fueled the flames that burned,
Whether bad or good,
We dove into such recklessness..
We never understood.

The crimes of youth we always fought,
Knocking at our door,
Pride destroying everything,
Two hearts were searching for....

Now there's nothing here to find,
except what's in my head,
Soundless pictures of love~

The Reason-Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you


The Reason-Hoobastank

FINE!!!!!!!!

1st July....

hey..it's me..
well,today was my birthday..
nothing special,just wanna share with you guys..^.^
anyways... i wake up and as usual do my daily routine which is sleep,
eat,mop the floor,fetch my siblings back from school then to tuition..zzzzzzzzzzz.........sounds boring right? swts.. to be honest,it is bored..
never the less,my dear friend ask me out for yam cha then i said ok... it's at 8.00 i reply her,sure..
the when i'm on my way i call her but she say she has not arrived then she ask me to
call another friend of mine,then i was like oh? i didn't know he's going...
anyhow,i called him confirm with him then after that when i arrived..
they have not reach yet.. i went in first(JETH CAFE)
after a few moments went by,then my friend arrived and most of buddiez came to celebrate my birthday with me....i was like woa.a... wow... shock,didn't expect to see them...
they were nice people,some of them after DJ class,and some after work,they came
and spent my last few hours of my birthday with me.. ^.^
guys,i sincerely wish you guys thank you so much!! very much!! i appreciate it..
and of course the organizer..E... thank you so much my dear.. muax!!
hmm..... i don't have a proper birthday cake due to my dad is not around,he went abroad..
so i decided to wait for him to celebrate..
i still have a birthday cake though.. it was my mum's friend purpose bake for me..
i was surprise.. thank you so much too aunt! thanks... ^.^

alright.. that's all,it's not big,not grand,but most importantly everyone had fun..
thank you so much guys... thanks for everything.. ^.^
take care,good luck with your future undertakings! gambateh!!!!! ^.^

~END OF 1st July 1991~