transparent? sigh...

oh well,now i'm transparent in your eyes.. sigh...
borrowing,lending,owing was never a crime,it's a crime when it comes
to repaying which you'd return after a year? a century? or just forget about it?
i'm not mugging about this,please don't misunderstand people..what i really wanna say is
when you need me,you'll remember me,when you don't,i'm just an ant to you,pretending that i'm not there with you
when i'm only in front of your eyes..
i'm waiting for your call every weekend,i thought you might want to shoot some hoops,hang out together..
but well,you never once called for about a month now..i thought i can spent some time with you,but well..
looks like i'm just a fool on a stage playing my own dumb role like i'm the only person living in this world.. sigh..
sigh..it's alright..i don't blame you.. you don't even care about me anyway.. sigh...
disappointing moment.. rejection to the world~ :'(

i didn't use any name instead of you because i don't wanna quarrel with you..
so please understand and don't come running to me like a mad dog after reading this...
sigh...sigh...it's disappointing..

looking,thinking,wishing~

looking,thinking,wishing
to go back in time to correct what i've done wrong...
seeking for the love,happiness we used to spent together..
seeking for my beloved............i miss so much,wishing to go back and correct
what i've done that hurt you..
i miss my past.. time flies.... sigh...
.................i miss you so much my dear~ and i'm sorry for everything..
will get back to as soon as i can.. forgive me yeah..
so sorry~ sigh...